UGH!

So, I've proven to myself that I am good for about a week and a half when it comes to exercising. I started out great. Rotating 5 minutes on the spin-bike, with 5 minutes of lifting. And there were three good hikes and two walks to and from the school along with that. It was fun. I think Gary about did me in on two of those hikes. The second hike of the first week was a nice family hike, Neil was pulled in a sled for the uphill parts, and slid down for most of the downhill parts. He walked a bit, when he chose too, and he walked for quite a bit when he did. Total, the hike turned out to be seven miles. Then Gary and I went out again two days later. It was only an hour and fifteen minutes, but it got pretty steep and quite snowy. It left me feeling that Gary really likes to push limits, and although I did it, I wonder if that is a contributing factor in the rapid decline of motivation. Since then, Gary went out of town for 3 days (almost two weeks ago). And I still haven't found the motivation to do anything. It's almost like a magnetic pull to the opposite. I just want to sleep and stay still. Or play in the kitchen. Which is so very counter-productive! Gary says it's self defeating, and I have to admit he's right. I know that I can indulge my love of cooking and feeding my family, but still treat myself well. Just HOW????? For now, I'm telling myself that at least the things I make are homemade, not loaded with preservatives and ingredients that take a Google search to identify. And, I guess that's a start. But, now to find things that are actually beneficial. Oh well, all that said, there are three pounds lost, hopefully never to find their way back. And, in this week's quest for more water, there has been far less soda.